New Perspective

2010-11-09T02:23:00.003+08:00

hi readers.

sorry for the long lay-off

from th world of blogging.

here's probably one of my last posts,

as i'm serving the nation in a few hours time!

wish me luck everyone(:

Love,

Ferza Fernando.

2010-09-19T02:02:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna rush things.

so baby,

tell me when you're ready?

2010-09-18T03:46:00.001+08:00

i love you too much

to say things,

that could/may end up hurting you.

sorry love.

2010-09-18T01:32:00.002+08:00

i'm tired.

mentally tired.

psychologically tired.

just tired.

of trying.

trying so hard.

i don't blame you.

cause if this is what makes you happy,

then let it be(:

2010-08-29T06:33:00.001+08:00

Hi. (:

A picture speaks a thousand words.

Honeybee <3

2010-08-11T02:19:00.003+08:00

Hi Mira.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you.

(:

2010-07-22T01:59:00.003+08:00

it was worth it.

seeing that smile,

light up your face,

and brighten up your day hopefully.

love <3

thanks K,
for cheering M up(:

2010-07-21T02:59:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to me.

it didn't turn out how i wanted it to be though.

oh well.

sweet dreams everyone(:

p.s. thanks for the cookie-cake love <3.

2010-07-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

watch me as i fall.

that's the truth.

i thought i could spend my special day with you.

and i ruined it.

boo.

i'm sorry,

and i really mean it.

2010-07-19T05:59:00.003+08:00

okay let's skip this.

main point is,

i want you.

i need you.

love.

if waiting is what you want me to do,

then i'll wait.

as long as you're happy

as long as you want me to.

(:

2010-07-19T04:37:00.001+08:00

i'll be waiting until you tell me to go.

yes i'll be waiting for your hand.

(:

2010-07-19T03:56:00.002+08:00

yeah i know.

you don't care.

it's okay.

:D

i'd rather suffer,

rather than see you suffer.

(:

2010-07-19T03:41:00.003+08:00

heart pain.

haha.

is this like pre-birthday torture?

do i have to know all this?

hahaha.

best.

now i hate myself more than ever.

i feel hurt.

haha.

:D

well,

that's life.

isn't it?

i'll stay.

but you'll stay too.

there,

not here.

i know :D

2010-07-18T17:32:00.003+08:00

hi.

i just hope you're fine.

you.

yes you.

sometimes i just don't know how

to help,

to console,

to comfort you.

but,

i'll be there

for you.

love.

2010-07-08T02:24:00.001+08:00

honestly...

having you,

would be the perfect

birthday present <3

2010-07-07T00:25:00.002+08:00

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around.

I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound.

Won't tell anybody.

2010-07-05T17:53:00.003+08:00

being alone,

really makes one think alot.

i feel down suddenly.

tell me.

are we going nowhere?

cause i feel lost.

again.

i feel pathetic right now,

i swear.

let's just run away,

shall we?

HA!

:/

2010-06-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

i'm jealous.

wanna know why?

teddy gets to hug and kiss her.

boo(:

2010-06-17T01:46:00.002+08:00

I just felt like posting this :D

cute right?

i know i know(:

<3

2010-06-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

So won't you be my honey bee?

2010-06-14T01:34:00.001+08:00

WHY?

cause i love you.

<3

2010-06-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

what's in my mind now ?

just making you happy.

that's all that matters.

i don't want to care about myself.

it's you that i care about.

love.

heartheart.beatbeat. <3

2010-06-11T02:32:00.003+08:00

i've stopped wandering.

my heart is already with you.

no one else can steal it now.

i surrender my soul to you.

i'm yours.

love.

2010-06-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

it's not late, i'm sure...

and happy...

another night,

another dream just meant for you...

just be here now, against me...

you know the words,

so sing along for me baby...

2010-06-04T04:26:00.002+08:00

it's Friday.

ONLY!

yeah.

only been a day.

darn.

why is time creeping so slowly,

when i want it to fly.

boo.

2010-06-03T00:16:00.002+08:00

darn.

you're leaving for Bintan in a few hours time.

and away for 4 days.

boo.

i'll miss you.

like alot.

i swear.

come back quick please.

<3

2010-05-31T15:09:00.001+08:00

i won't deny this.

i love you.

more and more each day.

yes i do <3

2010-05-28T01:05:00.004+08:00

here's a wonderful HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

to this girl over here(:

Happy 17th Amira Bte Toriman aka Sakura!(:

may you have a blessed year ahead <3

2010-05-26T18:41:00.002+08:00

i'm determined to stay.

at this point,

i swear i feel lost,

whenever you're not around.

i think i know why.

it's cause

my heart's with you.

yeah, for sure.

my heart beats,

only for you love.

you are,

my only one ♥.

2010-05-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

oh.

i made a promise.

and i'll keep my promise.

i swear.

2010-05-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

june is near.

i'm just wondering.

is this my final stretch ?

or is there another chapter to it ?

boo.

i need a vacation.

Venice?

2010-05-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

Graduation Ceremony in 8 hours time!

and tests for you love in 9.5 hours time!

best of luck Mira!<3

2010-05-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

Can someone just build me a time machine?

i really need it badly.

imma use it once only,

and i swear everything will be perfect.

yes i'm sure.

sigh.

2010-05-12T01:11:00.001+08:00

i miss this girl right here, can? :/

2010-05-06T13:49:00.001+08:00

Anata ga inakute sabishii yo.

2010-05-04T16:29:00.001+08:00

Dear Love.

I never left. I miss you even more each day.
I want you too.

<3

2010-04-27T16:26:00.002+08:00

lukushizika-san ♥ karinkishika-san!(:

aiishiteru.

2010-04-27T03:20:00.001+08:00

GOD

please give me strength, faith and love.

i really need it.

2010-04-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

i know you want me to want you i want youu.

2010-04-07T19:14:00.001+08:00

okay i admit.

i'm silly. :)

2010-04-05T02:08:00.002+08:00

i'm so glad,

yet so sad.

brilliant performance guys!

a much better and improved game compared to the previous.

now why didn't i score?

why did the ball had to hit the upright and away?

could've gave me something to smile about.

oh heck,

for the team!

so what's next?

2010-04-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

abcdefghijklmnopqrstvwxyz!

oh God please let me do something nice for tomorrow's match!

(:

2010-04-02T15:05:00.002+08:00

hi all!

highlight of today,

me driving 180km/h to Pasir Ris

with the company of Mr. Ikhwan & Mr. Mirul

who had the honour and joy of being part of it.

HA!

thanks Wan.

I felt like i was flying.

should have tried goin 200km/h

i'll try it,

when i'm alone ;)

oh and POCH PAITAO!

so much for wanting to meet us at Downtown East.

10 of us waited for you!

proof is in facebook.

adios.

i'm feeling sick already.

what a "Good Friday" this has been.

2010-03-17T02:16:00.002+08:00

This post pretty much sums up what's been happening so far. Bloco Singapura @ Chingay 2010 ! spot me ! and not forgetting the oh so wonderful PARAMORE !

and here's a video, Misery Business. love the start!

2010-03-08T03:13:00.002+08:00

PARAMORE WAS FANTASTIC !

PARAMORE-TASTIC !

certainly a concert to remember.

pity didn't meet anyone i knew there,

or maybe get to know someone.

hahahaha!

will update again soon(:

2010-03-06T17:22:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER AND DONE WITH !

WOOOHOOO!

so what's up next ?

PARAMORE concert tomorrow !

and MONTHS to ENJOY !

so let's see who's the lucky date for me tomorrow :D

update

2010-01-31T21:26:00.003+08:00

i'm at a lost.

what to do now?

football has been great so far for the team.

5 wins in 5.

more to come,

i hope.

for the record,

i scored yesterday,

playing for SP Sports Club.

i've not lost my goalscoring touch

i suppose.

chingay training has been really tiring.

can't wait for the actual day itself.

this week will probably be another hectic week.

gotta stay fit.

NAPFA at the end of the week,

JAVA to be done,

resume to be done,

more practice,

fitness level to be pushed further,

confidence to be built,

a smile to work on(HAHA!),

happiness to be share(o.O),

oh and

knowledge to be acquired.

which leaves me,

so shagged.

hoho.

oh and here's a picture.

this cute little boy disturbed me one fine day,

while i was in bed !

nevertheless,

he beamed at me,

when i was at my worst in bed.

(:

2010-01-09T02:57:00.003+08:00

past few days have been hec-hec-hec-tic!

SP OPEN HOUSE!

kay not to exaggerate but...

i only helped pack,distribute,place,arrange etc etc

the goodie bags!

or whatever it's called

for the parents' forum.

thanks to Miss Sufeaaa!

but hey it was fun i tell you.

made new friends,

had wonderful laughs,

great time spent!

made me realise

there IS more to what lies ahead.

if Sufea around,

more chaos!

in a good way of course.

okay i will update again soon enough!

GOODNIGHT!

SELAMAT MALAM!

SARANGHAEYO!

(:

2010-01-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

countdown was a blast i tell you!

great perfomances over at Marina Bay floating platform,

excellent fireworks as usual,

nice atmosphere...

and most importantly,

got a HUG from Singapore Idol finalist TABITHA NAUSER !

i'm not kidding i tell you.

marked a good start to the new year.

had a hell of a time on the dancefloor at the platform.

well for every plus points,

there had to be the bad ones.

had to leave early, around 2.30am.

lost a girl-friend,

like i did last year.

same time, same occasion.

oh if only i could rewind time,

make amends for my mistakes.

or maybe given a second chance.

it would never happen,

would it?

all it took was one mistake.

there was no second chance?

like deja vu.

probably take months before i

realise what's going on

then try to forget YOU.

sigh.

i'm really helpless.

well, for all i know.

i'll let you go,

but i'm not letting go.

i don't think you'll read this blog anyway.

you've moved on,

don't look back.

you'd see me standing there all alone.

amidst the crowds.

eyes closed,

wishing it was never over.

2009-12-25T02:59:00.002+08:00

23 Dec 09 probably sums up my already f*cked up week.

only then i realised i had a pathetic amount of friends.

who bothered to reply to my smses,

who bothered to entertain my calls,

who bothered to turn up that day for soccer.

there were only 7 of us.

so much for "aku anything" and "aku on"

only to not turn up.

so this wonderful 7 of us paid $10 each

for a supposedly hour of ball play at fico

imagine 3 v 4

how boring can it get.

lucky for us, time was "extended"

and so we played/made ends meet for approximately 2 hours

great or what, an extra hour!

but the bummer was still everything else.

with practically "no one" at home

i just didn't need "everyone else" to be like no one to me.

no money, no food, no entertainment, no life.

how better could it be?

2009-12-23T02:05:00.002+08:00

was on the mrt today

typical chinese man(probably China man) spoke like nobody's business

in the cabin.

seriously on the phone screaming like mad

though it's pretty obvious that the train was in the tunnel

and thus the noise would affect phone calls.

him being a typical Singaporean ass,

caused almost everyone to stare at him.

that aside.

plus point is th chocolates and candies from Candy Empire.

uber nice though the long queue(and price).

that's all for today.

still feeling f*cked up at home.

it's as though i'm living alone.

seriously.

oh by the way,

watching "Wizards of Waverly Palace" that day

brought me tears.

now you know how i feel without the love of a sibling.

first time i cried in months.

made me realise i still have feelings. (':

2009-12-22T02:36:00.002+08:00

time check.

2.35am

slept late last night

woke up even later.

insomnia.

not on speaking terms with parents.

feeling so shitty right now.

don't know what's gonna happen next.

probably wait for another reality check.

or maybe a slap in th face.

thank you.

2009-12-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

things got worse.

as expected.

thank you d for telling me truthfully

that i cannot sing.

i simply cannot sing

and am not a singer.

i'll have to repeat that to myself

everyday.

i learned the drums,

piano,

guitar.

that's what i need to be focusing on and do.

that's what d says.

what's the use of the drum at home if i weren't to use it?

what's the point of learning the guitar,

if you can't play it in your own band?

all so true.

maybe it's time i quit this hopeless, senseless dream and belief.

just like how i quit in relationships.

maybe i'm just not cut out for it.

i feel so empty. ):

2009-12-19T01:30:00.002+08:00

terrible i tell you.

first thing stuck at home.

then if going out, must have reason.

must know who,where,what,why.

if i suggest something,

it's like talking to the wall.

then when they "suddenly" comes up with something,

i have to respond.

even when i have plans.

pfft.

stuck up.

i'm losing hope on this world.

2009-12-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

lucky for me there was soccer on monday

if not i'd be dead bored at home

a month without soccer,

certainly not what i was looking for

and a big thank you to SP Sports Club,

for allowing me to show my talent

during trainings

and giving me hope to get into intercons

though i did not get into the team.

thank you

what a holiday this has been so far.

mummy, i want to go to Spain! :(

2009-12-14T02:58:00.002+08:00

apparently facebook is getting suckier and slower.

soon it'll be twitter or whatever shit that comes along.

spent my day at home today

should have gone out

or should have at least practised my vocals

now i ask myself,

why everytime i need to prompt?

is there a lack of motivation/desire?

if there is,

let's just call it quits.

cause i feel useless without music.

2009-12-13T04:15:00.002+08:00

ahh finally.

after a month being away.

this blog will attempt to revive itself.

thankfully MSTs are over.

now HOLIDAY!

though it's not much of a holiday to me.

plans all screwed up,

overseas plans screwed,

football matches screwed,

life abit screwed,

music screwed,

nothing much to be happy about i would say.

need to frequent the gym now.

rather than laze around at home all day.

i need entertainment! :)

2009-11-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

it's been ages since my last update.

not getting much readers anyway.

i know you guys/girls find this blog boring.

oh well.

Admiralz FC has conquered ESPZEN Div.6

thank you guys!

my horrible week ended on a high note.

luckily.

school is forever boring me.

sunday soccer is officially over.

which means i have to go gym more often.

and exercise more, for sure.

but it also means

another day off!

Evola is starting to rot,

so am i.

my vocal box is certainly dusty.

and one thing.

my face is starting to get better,

thankfully!

that's all i guess.

i'll try to post up pictures.

oh oh oh!

and thank you Adda for changing my blogskin.

you still owe me my ferrero rocher plus kinder bueno!

hahahaha.

i'm missing secondary school life.

sigh.

will try to update more frequently!

gdnight wonderful souls :)

update

2009-10-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

ever since school started,

life keeps getting boring

no excitement

no thrills

no fun

nothing.

with the season coming to an end

the thought of NAPFA getting closer

tests

and most importantly

my face.

sigh.

when will it recover?

makes me feel miserable

every single day.

:((

2009-09-19T02:35:00.001+08:00

to you wonderful readers,

an advanced Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir & Batin

heading to Jakarta, Indonesia in a couple of hours time.

till then!

2009-08-22T01:39:00.003+08:00

thanks to careless parking,

had to fork out $300 of my own

to pay for the damages.

sigh.

i felt the pinch after all.

i swear i'm saving everything i can

to make up for it.

oh anyway well done to Admiralz

winning 11-2 against Red Star Semangat FC

impressive.

failure to add to my sole goal tally sure placed a dampen on the performance.

however,

important part is the team won!

exams coming up,

oh how i hate exams.

just looking forward to the holidays,

even though holidays are sure to get boring.

hahah!

finally thank you blogger for allowing me to upload some pics.

first up,

a picture of the latest and greatest models on hills ( earth uh actually )

followed by a close-up of my girl :) nights everyone.

2009-08-13T00:46:00.002+08:00

can't believe i saw my HAIR

on SURIA just now.

show name, Gerimis Di Hati.

okay, big deal, i know.

but i got $50 for that.

big deal now?

hehe.

my name's on the Credits list !

but wrong spelling !

Ferza Fernando !

not Freza Fernando.

haha :)

2009-08-09T05:55:00.000+08:00

i'd post up a picture,

but it seems that there's some problem.

blogger has no button for it.

urgh.

dumb.

had a terrible day, week and also month.

probably one of the worst days of my life.

you'd agree if you were in my shoes.

fml.

sometimes i can't wait for life to be over.

oh so emo, lol.

i'm thankful i'm still breathing though.

pfft.

oh if only a miracle could happen.

sigh.

2009-07-20T00:28:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to Jamie !

&& Happy Birthday to meeee :)

2009-07-19T21:52:00.004+08:00

one of the most tiring week-end

friday started with 2 hours of lecture in the wee hours of a.m.

followed by project in the p.m.

then it was my first soccer training with the Sports Club at 5

and a great time getting to interact with

some of the dudes and dudettes

of Sports Club.

then after dropping some friends off at CCK & Yishun,

it was soccer time again

this time, Jelutung Court.

then headed to Nizam's crib

for an impromptu meeting with some of AFC boys.

1a.m, we left for home

sent Boy home before going home sweet home.

time check, 3am, bedtime.

then supposedly, 6.45am wake up time

but woke up at 7.45am

rushed for time.

time check: 9.30am, location: Changi Point Ferry Terminal

destination: Pulau Ubin

ohhh, a hell of a fun time we had there.

minus the bicycle-renting-choosing-price negotiating-plus-hot-weather.

we trekked the jungle via bicycle,

yes the JUNGLE with bikes,

15 of us.

like "pros", i tell you.

but it was an enjoyable and uber fun experience

with the boys.

3pm, headed back to Pulau...(chey another "Pulau"...)

Singapore, hehe. (okay it's not a Pulau)

terrible TP officer handed a white slip of paper on the car. (thanks ehhh)

was merely late by 30 mins. (even after putting 10 pieces of 50c coupons)

1 less -.-

went home almost immediately reaching around 5.

rest...

8pm, got ready.

left home at 8.30, but had to wait for Khai & Nizam.

9.45pm, St James Power House.

"uhh sorry the place is closed for tonight", said Mr Bonzer.

11pm, Zirca/Rebel

partaayy!

2am, time to go home.

reached home at 3 with Nizam & Khai sleeping over.

slept at 4.

okay knowing that we had a short sleep time the day before,

we were obviously & extremely tired.

had to be at Yishun @ 7.45am.

nuts i know.

LATE, we reached there around 8.45am.

with that fatigued and weary looks on our faces.

HAHA!

okay the team's highlight was that we made it into the quarter-finals.

but pity for not going through to the semis.

my highlight?

i scored! in the first game to grab the points for the team :)

&& that sums up my weekend.

wicked, i know.

pictures, i have to put up.

one of my best pre-birthday time i ever had :)

2009-07-08T00:53:00.003+08:00

ahh.

Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen,

watched it,

twice in the cinemas alrdy :P

ohh i can't wait for sunday :D

youth of the nation.

can i have this, dad?

2009-07-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

goodbye June,

hello July.

had a kick-a-bout at Turf City's Futsal pitch earlier.

i had fun,

though it lasted for awhile.

just glad that exams are over.

but the thought of school,

depressing.

been a tiring and hectic week.

but lastly,

my prayers are sent,

to one of the greatest music artist ever,

Michael Joseph Jackson,

King of Pop,

the "Moonwalker".

29th August 1958 - 25th June 2009.

May you rest in peace.

2009-06-10T02:23:00.002+08:00

it's been eons since i updated.

my apologies,

though i know there are some

or even none,

followers of this blog.

life's been pretty much of a cycle.

which makes it more of an excuse

for me not blogging frequently.

june holidays have just begun

stuck with Final Year Project

ahh,

off to Cameron Highlands later morning.

hope it'll be fun.

adieu to all.

will update again soon,

hopefully ;)

update finally

2009-05-08T04:42:00.003+08:00

Been quite a while since i updated.

sorry readers( if there was any, but i doubt there is since this has been like so dead! :P )

It's 4.42am already.

got back home at 1am from Lollipop@Zouk.

It was a blast i tell you!

great atmosphere,

great people,

and of course great music to dance with.

i got really really tired cause of the non-stop dancing.

&& i'm glad i broke my goalscoring drought on sunday.

with a free-kick nonetheless.

school, has been a bore.

except for the plenty-of-year-ones-girls :D

i'll want to post up pictures.

soon...

soon.......

2009-03-24T15:50:00.003+08:00

it's been 20 days since my last update!

yes 3 weeks have gone by.

work's been eating up my time.

since i'm kinda free now,

i thought i'd do a lil update.

plenty of pictures to post SOON.

firstly,

Friday, the 13th has been a great day

it was 3rd time lucky for me.

10 points only for my driving TP test.

thank GOD!

it was followed by an excellent night soccer at Jelutung.

Friday 13th unlucky?

not for me (:

Admiralz FC performed brilliantly last sunday.

an epic 4-2 win over the Koreans.

after being 2-1 down with 8 mins left.

we banged in 3 goals.

keep up the good work guys.

i'll update again soon.

with pictures,

i promise(:

2009-03-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

life's been hectic lately.

playden@arts house went great!

though i admit,

my showmanship needs to be improved,

greatly.

endless thanks for those who came.

the pre-gig dinner was awesome.

evola with friends and family.

sunday then came,

unlucky for us to draw the game,

4-4.

the opponent certainly showed they were no pushovers.

monday woke me early morning.

first day at work.

office work.

i'll post pics to explain the situations.

soon.

2009-02-18T01:00:00.001+08:00

Can I hold your hand?

Can I wipe your tears?

Can I make my stand?

I will fight your fears...

2009-02-14T00:29:00.003+08:00

guitar lesson with Mr Rosli Mansor

superb as usual.

then off to Toa Payoh

shuttle service to Bukit Timah.

played turf football with Aiman,

his bro, cousins and friends.

had a smashing time i tell you.

according to Mr Aiman,

i managed to score 5.

in which i only remembered the first goal. HAHA!

then in the second half,

played goalie,

conceded 3 or 4.

but i managed to make up for it,

scoring two,

assisting/playmaking from the back too.

total tally for the day was 7.

to represent that number 7

on the back of my shirt ;)

thank you guys.

hope i score one in the weekend.

ohh,

i received my ITP placement.

it's at Raffles Place,

some sales and marketing company :)

ohh &&,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ALL!

2009-02-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

after so long.

another GREAT jamming session today.

sound check,

come home soon,

heart tragedies,

oh it's monday!

&& ohh i love heart tragedies.

i had a wonderful time singing.

28th Feb y'all!

watch this space.

ohh ohh,

i adore you, really.

2009-02-10T01:00:00.001+08:00

exams coming in a week.

i'm so not prepared.

no news of ITP.

knee's been a problem.

school has been kinda hectic.

gig in a few weeks.

one plus point,

gazillions of chocolates in my room!

it's like choco-heaven.

but of course too much isn't good.

lol.

anyone want?

come and get it !

i'm worried.

i'm scared.

i'm too young for this.

2009-02-03T23:23:00.001+08:00

it took some time.

just waiting for 28th February.

and perhaps 13th March.

any more dates i missed?

2009-01-31T02:50:00.002+08:00

disaster.

well, literally.

haircut was okay.

but colour wasn't.

turned out BRIGHT!

gah!

glimpse of Noh Alam Shah's hair comes to mind.

OMG.

okay nvm.

as long as my attitude isn't bad.

oh.

it's 3am.

we're reminiscing.

2009-01-28T03:38:00.000+08:00

back from Indon.

aching all over.

post pics next time.

a month ago,

i came back to see you near.

now,

i came back and saw you go.

happy one month of loving youu. LOL.

k shush.

i can't possibly compete with him.

2009-01-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

we begin with some pictures.

class.

passion.

versatility.

love.

pure hungry-ness? LOL. ( okay i didn't bite the mic )

evolA.Alove

2009-01-22T00:01:00.001+08:00

hello wello jello.

2 more days to friday.

and off we go!

Jakarta, Indonesia.

hope i'll have fun.

maybe i can get some inspirations.

wish you were here.

.ahsan ailema

2009-01-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

had fun jamming today.

had 3 different guests/friends who came to watch.

photos photos photos.

no videos,

darn.

anyway Happy Advanced Birthday to my bassist Khairy Alfian.

and Happy Birthday to Muhd Aiman.

live long !

lol.

i wish you,

would miss me,

the way that i miss you...

2009-01-19T21:23:00.003+08:00

another day gone bad.

one after another.

i need guidance,

i need help,

i need love,

i need you.

can? :(

it's hard to believe,

i dreamt of you again last night.

sigh.

her name's A_____ N______

she's not mine. lol.

2009-01-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

we lost.

pity.

but had some great team bonding after that.

went to punggol, changi, buangkok etc.

tiring.

kinda enjoyable though.

pictures?

i'll post up another time.

it's 1.20am

just reached home.

super fatigued.

nights.

pray that i pass TP later yeah?

i miss you alot Natt. lol.

2009-01-16T23:18:00.004+08:00

First some photos of the team's "award ceremony"

Now some pics of SP Innovex cum Open House 2009

SP models.

pretty right? lol.

oh yeah,

she's the one that caught my eye ;)

2009-01-12T00:56:00.002+08:00

had our team friendly match cum "prize and award presentation"

we won 3 goals to one.

i didn't score, unlucky.

worst part was,

i got tackled by 2 opponents.

one pushed me while the other slided.

and there i went flying.

muscle cramps and scraped knee.

i miss you.

2009-01-10T11:33:00.003+08:00

i know it's hard to believe.

but,

i keep seeing you in my dreams.

too bad,

they're just dreams.

well at least,

it felt real.

i woke up with a smile :)

k, fill in the blanks go!

2009-01-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

days have been tiring.

not much to update.

see you lil' kids at SP Open House :)

song in my head : I melt with you - Jason Mraz

2009-01-04T18:20:00.000+08:00

I try to picture the girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

Try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
See him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're makin after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
And the order of the permeates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is this assembly singing gratitude
Practicing their loving for you

Just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
Nothing is ever as it seems
This life is but a dream

2009-01-02T01:59:00.001+08:00

goodnight.

2009-01-01T14:49:00.003+08:00

ferza fernando, you're a bloody irritating as***le.

you f**king lost your N95 handphone.

you didn't manage to celebrate the new year with A loved one.

you f**king irritated someone.

and now you've lost loved ones.

what a way to go into the new year.

please change your life for the better, ferza.

2008-12-30T23:06:00.002+08:00

my patience is really being tested.

i lost my handphone today.

my life is on the rocks.

school has been disappointing.

i feel miserable.

can you make me smile?

you know who you are.

2008-12-27T21:14:00.002+08:00

time flies.

people change.

life changes.

i'd like to end this year on a high note.

so first and foremost,

i'd like to apologise to everyone,

of whom i've done wrong to.

and thank those,

who have been wonderful.

i hope 2009 will be a great year.

resolutions?

not now(:

2008-12-22T11:44:00.001+08:00

off to Indonesia.

be back in a few days readers!

to Christy : life's okay. chat with you soon yeah?(:

to chicqin : will relink you soon(:

i'll sing.

2008-12-19T00:19:00.004+08:00

the Mraz brothers. Alfian Mraz && Ferza Fernando Mraz.

happiness + joy = picture above

Admirals FC

we are family.

random pictures.

2008-12-15T03:31:00.002+08:00

i need answers.

why won't you even reply?

is there something or someone that's holding you back?

tell me.

say something.

because,

i feel lost.

without a word from you.

what should i do?

what can i do?

you don't really care,

do you?

2008-12-14T02:24:00.002+08:00

here's what happened today.

you rocked the dancefloor MIKE!

oh boy,

i look ugly,

till you ran away.

2008-12-13T13:36:00.004+08:00

tell me something i don't already know.

words like

hate,

dislike,

unhappy,

fake,

dream,

keeps appearing in my mind.

i need laughter.

i need joy.

i need smiles.

i need someone like you.

or.

i need you.

oh yea,

i dreamt of you last night.

2008-12-13T03:06:00.003+08:00

here i am.

blogging at 3 in the morning.

why?

cause suddenly i felt useless.

hopeless.

unwanted.

life suddenly seemed very dull.

and i feel very alone.

in fact,

i am alone.

i wish i could talk,

to you perhaps.

but i know,

you're always busy.

your call,

certainly brightened me up.

i was smiling,

ear to ear.

and people thought

i was crazy.

smiling to myself.

hah.

it's so hard,

to get answers.

yet so easy,

to ask questions.

i've plenty of questions.

answers?

there was none.

i thought you could help,

instead you chose not to answer,

preferring to keep quiet.

no wonder they say,

silence is golden.

update.

2008-12-09T00:40:00.003+08:00

a little update.

went to watch Madagascar 2 last saturday.

with her and her friend.

well, the show was nice.

the theater was considerably empty.

with only a handful of people.

too bad she had to leave immediately after that.

sigh.

&& i can't believe last night's sms replies

were by her mum.

and NOT her.

omg.

dumbstruck.

and finally,

Admirals FC crowned CHAMPIONS.

hoorah for the team.

guess what?

iloveyou.

haves.

2008-12-04T21:36:00.004+08:00

i have two wonderful parents,

but no siblings.

i have great friends,

but none a lover.

i have valuable items,

but none as valuable as love.

i have dreams,

but none will ever come true.

[i wanted to be a professional soccer player;

it was purely a dream.

i loved music,

but i've no certain expertise.

i've thought of modelling,

it never happened.]

BUT,

i have you.

oh...

no i don't.

it was just a dream.

so,

can anyone tell me,

what do i have?