i'm at a lost.


what to do now?


football has been great so far for the team.


5 wins in 5.


more to come,


i hope.


for the record,


i scored yesterday,


playing for SP Sports Club.


i've not lost my goalscoring touch


i suppose.


chingay training has been really tiring.


can't wait for the actual day itself.


this week will probably be another hectic week.


gotta stay fit.


NAPFA at the end of the week,


JAVA to be done,


resume to be done,


more practice,


fitness level to be pushed further,


confidence to be built,


a smile to work on(HAHA!),


happiness to be share(o.O),


oh and


knowledge to be acquired.


which leaves me,


so shagged.


hoho.


oh and here's a picture.


this cute little boy disturbed me one fine day,


while i was in bed !







nevertheless,


he beamed at me,


when i was at my worst in bed.


(:

Labels: what now?

past few days have been hec-hec-hec-tic!


SP OPEN HOUSE!


kay not to exaggerate but...


i only helped pack,distribute,place,arrange etc etc


the goodie bags!


or whatever it's called


for the parents' forum.


thanks to Miss Sufeaaa!


but hey it was fun i tell you.


made new friends,


had wonderful laughs,


great time spent!


made me realise


there IS more to what lies ahead.


if Sufea around,


more chaos!


in a good way of course.


okay i will update again soon enough!


GOODNIGHT!


SELAMAT MALAM!


SARANGHAEYO!


(:

countdown was a blast i tell you!


great perfomances over at Marina Bay floating platform,


excellent fireworks as usual,


nice atmosphere...


and most importantly,


got a HUG from Singapore Idol finalist TABITHA NAUSER !


i'm not kidding i tell you.


marked a good start to the new year.


had a hell of a time on the dancefloor at the platform.


well for every plus points,


there had to be the bad ones.


had to leave early, around 2.30am.


lost a girl-friend,


like i did last year.


same time, same occasion.


oh if only i could rewind time,


make amends for my mistakes.


or maybe given a second chance.


it would never happen,


would it?


all it took was one mistake.


there was no second chance?


like deja vu.


probably take months before i


realise what's going on


then try to forget YOU.


sigh.


i'm really helpless.


well, for all i know.


i'll let you go,


but i'm not letting go.


i don't think you'll read this blog anyway.


you've moved on,


don't look back.


you'd see me standing there all alone.


amidst the crowds.


eyes closed,


wishing it was never over.

Labels: Tabitha Nauser

23 Dec 09 probably sums up my already f*cked up week.


only then i realised i had a pathetic amount of friends.


who bothered to reply to my smses,


who bothered to entertain my calls,


who bothered to turn up that day for soccer.


there were only 7 of us.


so much for "aku anything" and "aku on"


only to not turn up.


so this wonderful 7 of us paid $10 each


for a supposedly hour of ball play at fico


imagine 3 v 4


how boring can it get.


lucky for us, time was "extended"


and so we played/made ends meet for approximately 2 hours


great or what, an extra hour!


but the bummer was still everything else.


with practically "no one" at home


i just didn't need "everyone else" to be like no one to me.


no money, no food, no entertainment, no life.


how better could it be?

was on the mrt today


typical chinese man(probably China man) spoke like nobody's business


in the cabin.


seriously on the phone screaming like mad


though it's pretty obvious that the train was in the tunnel


and thus the noise would affect phone calls.


him being a typical Singaporean ass,


caused almost everyone to stare at him.


that aside.


plus point is th chocolates and candies from Candy Empire.


uber nice though the long queue(and price).


that's all for today.


still feeling f*cked up at home.


it's as though i'm living alone.


seriously.


oh by the way,


watching "Wizards of Waverly Palace" that day


brought me tears.


now you know how i feel without the love of a sibling.


first time i cried in months.


made me realise i still have feelings. (':

time check.


2.35am


slept late last night


woke up even later.


insomnia.


not on speaking terms with parents.


feeling so shitty right now.


don't know what's gonna happen next.


probably wait for another reality check.


or maybe a slap in th face.


thank you.

things got worse.


as expected.


thank you d for telling me truthfully


that i cannot sing.


i simply cannot sing


and am not a singer.


i'll have to repeat that to myself


everyday.


i learned the drums,


piano,


guitar.


that's what i need to be focusing on and do.


that's what d says.


what's the use of the drum at home if i weren't to use it?


what's the point of learning the guitar,


if you can't play it in your own band?


all so true.


maybe it's time i quit this hopeless, senseless dream and belief.


just like how i quit in relationships.


maybe i'm just not cut out for it.


i feel so empty. ):

i'm at a lost.


what to do now?


football has been great so far for the team.


5 wins in 5.


more to come,


i hope.


for the record,


i scored yesterday,


playing for SP Sports Club.


i've not lost my goalscoring touch


i suppose.


chingay training has been really tiring.


can't wait for the actual day itself.


this week will probably be another hectic week.


gotta stay fit.


NAPFA at the end of the week,


JAVA to be done,


resume to be done,


more practice,


fitness level to be pushed further,


confidence to be built,


a smile to work on(HAHA!),


happiness to be share(o.O),


oh and


knowledge to be acquired.


which leaves me,


so shagged.


hoho.


oh and here's a picture.


this cute little boy disturbed me one fine day,


while i was in bed !







nevertheless,


he beamed at me,


when i was at my worst in bed.


(:

Labels: what now?

past few days have been hec-hec-hec-tic!


SP OPEN HOUSE!


kay not to exaggerate but...


i only helped pack,distribute,place,arrange etc etc


the goodie bags!


or whatever it's called


for the parents' forum.


thanks to Miss Sufeaaa!


but hey it was fun i tell you.


made new friends,


had wonderful laughs,


great time spent!


made me realise


there IS more to what lies ahead.


if Sufea around,


more chaos!


in a good way of course.


okay i will update again soon enough!


GOODNIGHT!


SELAMAT MALAM!


SARANGHAEYO!


(:

countdown was a blast i tell you!


great perfomances over at Marina Bay floating platform,


excellent fireworks as usual,


nice atmosphere...


and most importantly,


got a HUG from Singapore Idol finalist TABITHA NAUSER !


i'm not kidding i tell you.


marked a good start to the new year.


had a hell of a time on the dancefloor at the platform.


well for every plus points,


there had to be the bad ones.


had to leave early, around 2.30am.


lost a girl-friend,


like i did last year.


same time, same occasion.


oh if only i could rewind time,


make amends for my mistakes.


or maybe given a second chance.


it would never happen,


would it?


all it took was one mistake.


there was no second chance?


like deja vu.


probably take months before i


realise what's going on


then try to forget YOU.


sigh.


i'm really helpless.


well, for all i know.


i'll let you go,


but i'm not letting go.


i don't think you'll read this blog anyway.


you've moved on,


don't look back.


you'd see me standing there all alone.


amidst the crowds.


eyes closed,


wishing it was never over.

Labels: Tabitha Nauser

23 Dec 09 probably sums up my already f*cked up week.


only then i realised i had a pathetic amount of friends.


who bothered to reply to my smses,


who bothered to entertain my calls,


who bothered to turn up that day for soccer.


there were only 7 of us.


so much for "aku anything" and "aku on"


only to not turn up.


so this wonderful 7 of us paid $10 each


for a supposedly hour of ball play at fico


imagine 3 v 4


how boring can it get.


lucky for us, time was "extended"


and so we played/made ends meet for approximately 2 hours


great or what, an extra hour!


but the bummer was still everything else.


with practically "no one" at home


i just didn't need "everyone else" to be like no one to me.


no money, no food, no entertainment, no life.


how better could it be?

was on the mrt today


typical chinese man(probably China man) spoke like nobody's business


in the cabin.


seriously on the phone screaming like mad


though it's pretty obvious that the train was in the tunnel


and thus the noise would affect phone calls.


him being a typical Singaporean ass,


caused almost everyone to stare at him.


that aside.


plus point is th chocolates and candies from Candy Empire.


uber nice though the long queue(and price).


that's all for today.


still feeling f*cked up at home.


it's as though i'm living alone.


seriously.


oh by the way,


watching "Wizards of Waverly Palace" that day


brought me tears.


now you know how i feel without the love of a sibling.


first time i cried in months.


made me realise i still have feelings. (':

time check.


2.35am


slept late last night


woke up even later.


insomnia.


not on speaking terms with parents.


feeling so shitty right now.


don't know what's gonna happen next.


probably wait for another reality check.


or maybe a slap in th face.


thank you.

things got worse.


as expected.


thank you d for telling me truthfully


that i cannot sing.


i simply cannot sing


and am not a singer.


i'll have to repeat that to myself


everyday.


i learned the drums,


piano,


guitar.


that's what i need to be focusing on and do.


that's what d says.


what's the use of the drum at home if i weren't to use it?


what's the point of learning the guitar,


if you can't play it in your own band?


all so true.


maybe it's time i quit this hopeless, senseless dream and belief.


just like how i quit in relationships.


maybe i'm just not cut out for it.


i feel so empty. ):